I don’t want to hang out with this boy at all but I need something to distract me… I have a lot of stress to work out.
Gym, Library, Parties.
That’s all that’s on my mind right now.
And money. I need money!
If I can finish this semester with
Shakespeare: B
Technical Writing: A
French 1: C
French 2: B
Yoga: A
That will make up for all the emotional roller coastin’ I’ve been doing.
Boys: don’t understand them.
Girls: don’t understand them.
Three more weeks in the semester. It looks like I’m going to stick to the books and stop trying to be friends with this motherfucker because alcohol seems to be his main priority. Alcohol, money, and hoes. Cool, do what you do.
I am the happiest I have been in months.
All the sobriety has put me in a better place. I may keep it up well into the summer.
I’ll just wander into myself
It’s all too much of a grey area. I prefer to leave it here for now. I’ve learned that waiting is best. You can’t mess anything up if you leave it stagnant. If it is there when I am more prepared than it is meant to be. If not, it was never meant to be.
I don’t want to be the only one making an effort anymore. I sacrifice my free time to get closer to you and you don’t seem to want to do the same. I rather not waste my time on someone who doesn’t want or deserve it.
Guess I’ll dive more into school and the gym. I have some winter weight to get off. I wish there was a way to only lose upper body fat. My lower half is the perfect amount of sexy.
Another let down but what else is new.
Still real emotional…
February 15
I did nothing all day. I was too hungover last night. I need to get all my emotions in order. Too may laying around. Need to get all my files in check. It is getting increasing harder to see him. Every time I try to ignore him is when we have these random run ins. I need to rid myself of all my emotions for him. It cannot work. He’s so sure, mature, and self-aware. I’m only a child.
I’m really hurting right now…
Just going to let this one go for now.
Shopping List
Casual Wear
Acid wash jeansDenim jacket or vest- Some J’s!! (4,6,8’s)
- Dark blue levi’s
- Rings
- Earrings (Door knockers)
- Necklaces
Sunglasses- Home made bracelets (y’know)
- Rope belt
- Snapback or fitted
- Bulls jersey
- Leggings
Night Wear
DressesHeels- Matte eye makeup
- Lip gloss
- Lace tights
Tomorrow, my heart is going to break like never before. I’m almost certain. :|
I don’t want any of this bullshit anymore.
I haven’t updated on here in a while
I’ve gotten back into the sex game. And I fully intend to play in it every opportunity I get.
Four more weeks of this semester. Too ready.
Hello November.
Achieved none of my October goals.
